It's Time to Dance

Today is rather an emotional day...in that I am experiencing a wide range of emotions! I feel excited. I feel nervous. I feel anxious. I even feel a little bit dizzy but I am linking that to all the deep breathing I am doing to deal with the other stuff!

Tomorrow is Day 1 of 7. Day 1 of my Nia White Belt Training.

I think in total I have taken 13 Nia classes now.  Some in Hong Kong, some here in Canada. It's not many in the scheme of things but I feel OK about that because I have enjoyed each and every class I've taken. I want to delve deeper and get to the heart of this vibrant practice that for me, feels like Dancing My Yoga.  Right now it's for personal development but who knows where that may lead. One step at a time.

I'm more nervous than I should be, or normally would be in a situation like this and it all relates to my last blog post and the events recounted there. The finger is healing. Slowly. On the plus side it looks much better. I can indeed look at it now. I can feel compassion for it rather than horror and fear. I think that's important. However, looks can be deceiving of course and it is hard to tell how this story is going to end. I'm doing my best to write the ending I want: It will heal perfectly and a new nail will grow. Lets assume that. In the meantime, the Finger is so utterly full of sensations, most of the time. It feels quite bizarre. Moving around and any contact needs to be done with full awareness. At first I panicked a bit at this realisation....how would I cope? How will I be able to dance? How will I write my notes? What if there is partner work?

Of course I spent some time here...worrying...and eventually I smiled...maybe even laughed out loud. This is just perfect. It's like I have an extra tool to help me with awareness as I learn about the joy of movement and other Nia principles, over the next 7 days. Of course I'd prefer to be without this particular "tool", but what I need to do is accept it and let it become part of my experience rather than hinder my experience. Work with it and allow it to help me learn more about my body and my limitations, even my thought processes. I've learned a lot already in the last 3 weeks without a classroom and a schedule, so surely by adding these things, I can only learn more.

Once I worked that bit out, I headed out to get my toenails painted a beautiful purple colour and I'm now officially ready to dance :-)