Transition

It's a bit of a shame that it's taken me this long to get to a place where I'm ready to start this blog because there has been so much transition already. Some of it good, some of it perfectly natural and some of it plain messy and upsetting. I'm sure I'll remember the Big things but there have also been some subtle changes to Me which are less obvious on the surface and have only come to light over a period of time. These are the things I don't want to miss. If we are lucky we learn from all our experiences. If we can learn without being judgemental about what occurred or about our reaction to change, we take a step closer to knowing ourselves and making just a little bit more sense out of this crazy life.


It is almost 4 months to the day that we left Hong Kong to return to Canada. I guess that feels about right but to be honest, most days it feels like a distant dream. Did that really happen? Was that really me living that life? Yes it really was and I'm grateful that I lived it the way I did. A year in a country like Hong Kong can pass you by fast, really fast, if you're not careful. There were days when I wished it away a little and dreamed of being Home where everything was "normal". That feels very ironic now because I'm of the opinion that there is no normal. Just different ways of living and being. The longer we have been living a life, the more normal it may feel, but that does not make it normal by anyone elses standards.


My life right here, right now, doesn't feel very normal either and yet on the surface, I could be described as living a very normal life. House, car, husband...of course I'm missing a few "essential" ingredients, like children and pets and right now, a job...but all that aside, I'm perfectly "normal".


What am I getting at? Well....like I said in my profile, this blog is an adventure for me. An exploration. I feel a bit braver having already done this before. I'm writing this for Me, not for you, the reader. I'm anticipating results on some level. A personal level. First though, I need to do some work. Some excavation, some digging. Hopefully I'll find treasure but whatever I find, I'm pretty sure it will help guide me forward, in whichever direction that may be.